[She's quiet for a second, before giving her one, slow nod.]
The same kind of bonkers. It... um. Everyone called it... despair. Because what it was, was like...
Doing everything that could hurt yourself just for the thrill of feeling that bad. Just short of actually, like... Killing yourself.
[Another short pause, mostly to swallow hard; letting her legs fall back down off the bench, paws hitting the grass.
She kind of wants to grab Makoto's hand as she brings this up, but she's doing her best to give her space between the two of them on the bench.]
But they went and did that. After the reserve course took care of everyone but us in the school, they killed themselves, all of'em. And from there... My class destroyed what was left of the school so we could pretend we were dead, too. And we separated, to try and spread that despair to the rest of the world...
And we did a lot of bad stuff, like that. Really bad stuff. Hurting the people we love, hurting each other, hurting ourselves... all just to feel that rush of feeling awful. I-I think I... might've axed my old band... my memories are pretty fuzzy, though.
... And even then, that doesn't really square up to what me'n Hiyoko-chan did.
[Which she is, yes, implying that whatever she and Hiyoko did? Worse than killing her old band. Worse.
She's also keeping herself from mentioning Junko or Chiaki on purpose. Yeah, there is something out there that makes someone go that completely off the deep end, but...
She'd rather Makoto form an opinion on the acts first, not the reason behind it.]
We... me and my class - we ended up going so far that... We ended the world... Ibuki's world is super dead, now. Everyone back there's tryin' to clean up our mess, but there's not a lotta people left...
...
You get why Ibuki's telling you about all this, right?
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The same kind of bonkers. It... um. Everyone called it... despair.
Because what it was, was like...
Doing everything that could hurt yourself just for the thrill of feeling that bad. Just short of actually, like...
Killing yourself.
[Another short pause, mostly to swallow hard; letting her legs fall back down off the bench, paws hitting the grass.
She kind of wants to grab Makoto's hand as she brings this up, but she's doing her best to give her space between the two of them on the bench.]
But they went and did that. After the reserve course took care of everyone but us in the school, they killed themselves, all of'em.
And from there...
My class destroyed what was left of the school so we could pretend we were dead, too. And we separated, to try and spread that despair to the rest of the world...
And we did a lot of bad stuff, like that. Really bad stuff. Hurting the people we love, hurting each other, hurting ourselves... all just to feel that rush of feeling awful.
I-I think I... might've axed my old band... my memories are pretty fuzzy, though.
... And even then, that doesn't really square up to what me'n Hiyoko-chan did.
[Which she is, yes, implying that whatever she and Hiyoko did? Worse than killing her old band.
Worse.
She's also keeping herself from mentioning Junko or Chiaki on purpose. Yeah, there is something out there that makes someone go that completely off the deep end, but...
She'd rather Makoto form an opinion on the acts first, not the reason behind it.]
We... me and my class - we ended up going so far that...
We ended the world...
Ibuki's world is super dead, now. Everyone back there's tryin' to clean up our mess, but there's not a lotta people left...
...
You get why Ibuki's telling you about all this, right?