things keep getting scarier none of us asked for this maya don't take this the wrong way or feel guilty or anything but when you left me there it felt like i was back in that cage i know that wasn't you though... not really it's not your fault that that happened i know you wouldn't do that but that's what it felt like despite having all these extra powers as a monster it just made me feel... powerless? i... guess.
or someone who finds a way to get into your weaknesses... there's always something i hate it especially because a lot of us didn't want to be put in this situation anyway...
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So she has to be for now. She's learning. People like Makoto are important, and think she's important, too.]
I was scared yeah
But around here you get a little injury and it goes away
I was more scared for you, I wasn't sure if we'd get you back.
But things are different now huh?
Things are scarier now.
[She thinks of being throatless, bleeding, wishing for a death that just wouldn't come.]
That must have been horrible
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none of us asked for this
maya
don't take this the wrong way
or feel guilty
or anything
but when you left me there
it felt like i was back in that cage
i know that wasn't you though...
not really
it's not your fault that that happened
i know you wouldn't do that
but that's what it felt like
despite having all these extra powers as a monster
it just made me feel... powerless?
i... guess.
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i think i get it.
[She types and deletes "I'm sorry" a few times throughout.]
it feels like no matter how strong we are there's always someone stronger
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there's always something
i hate it
especially because a lot of us didn't want to be put in this situation anyway...
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it feels pointless a lot of the time, like we're just here to suffer
but the times in between are good
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but then we wouldn't enjoy the good times!!!
but i think i can enjoy the good times on like a little less suffering at least
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i wake sonia up a lot
not because i mean to
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and then the poachers
so it's just been... bad
[And now this past week...]
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i wish we could get them taken away somehow. i'm sorry
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but i don't think i want anyone messing with my head...
you don't have to apologize
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I mean
It's not like mana asked us to kill anyone
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i just don't trust anyone from here to do anything with my head
i don't trust anyone with weird powers that's from ryslig
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I'll make a protection charm for your dreams. I'll come see you soon.. Ok?
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i love you, maya.
just so you know.
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